Just this once
I played the guitar string in my head
It hummed my favorite song
Beating like my busted heart.
Smoke screened my eyes
I'm blinded.
I lay asleep down on the floor
Dreaming about memories
I never really had.
Seeing faces I can't remember.
Who's that girl?
I don't know her
Not her face
Not her name
Not every moment we spent together
Which never happened.
Walking alone at the ceiling above my eyes.
My eyelids opening and closing
Like the gates she have locked.
Like those windows breaking
From the falling of hailstones
Sending me again to sleep.
Writing letters behind my ears
Singing songs I cannot hear.
I'm mute.
I'm blind.
I'm deaf.
I'm numb.
Make me feel
Make me feel again
And you did
Made me feel pain
Sadness and regret.
These tears were born of pain.
Clogging my nose with promises.
I can not breathe
Not anymore.
I'm still wishing
Upon a star that never appeared
In my dark starless cloudy skies.
Set me on fire
Toast me like mallows.
Taste my blood
And finally.
Run away
Leaving me behind
With no cookies
Complementing me.
















